It has been a couple months since my last blog simply because not much has happened, but lots of people have been asking me how things are going so I thought I would give a quick update. Since September I have already tried a couple of things. First, I decided to go off the birth control. One of the reasons I went off of it 3 years ago was of course to start trying to conceive, but also I hated the way it made me feel. I just wasn't myself. So I decided to go off that which is when I was informed about a medication called Metformin. This medicine is mainly used for people with diabetes, but strangely enough it also is supposed to help with women who have PCOS. When a woman has PCOS she starts getting more insulin then needed which is where the Metformin comes in. It helps with people who have diabetes to regulate their insulin, as it does with women who have PCOS. Studies have found that it also helps women ovulate, get pregnant, and not have a miscarriage so I tried it. Unfortunately it made me lose my appetite and have diarrhea for 2 weeks straight. After consulting with my dr about it, she thought it was best if I went off that for the time being and went forward with hormone shots and progesterone suppositories (sorry tmi). I had to give myself 2 hormone shots in October to help my hormone level become more normal, and then take progesterone to give me a more normal cycle. It was very strange giving myself a shot. I felt anxious and concerned that I wasn't going to do it right. But once I did it, I felt relieved and proud of myself that I actually could do it. This is going to be a 4 month cycle. So for the next 3 months I will be giving myself 2 shots a month, progesterone suppositories, and my dr will perform artificial insemenation. That means she will put Dane's sperm into one of my eggs that has hopefully formed and will allow me to conceive. We are praying it works because with each step the success rate becomes higher of getting pregnant, but the price raises as well.
Something I meant to share earlier was during the first month of the shots, I hadn't gotten my period. The dr had said if I didn't get my period by the 32nd day of my cycle to take a pregnancy test. Well my period hadn't come and so of course Dane and I were thinking I was pregnant. I'm never late with my period, usually early so all the signs pointed to "PREGNANT"!! So that Saturday I took a test early in the morning because I was just so excited, and it came back negative. I was crushed. That weekend was just really hard for me. I cried like a baby to the girls in my bible study group and they just came around me and prayed for me which was so comforting. I'm doing better now, but unfortunately I am becoming more skeptical with every month that I am not pregnant. It is very hard to share this, but I know that those who are reading this will pray for me or maybe have experienced this as well. Knowing there are women like me who are going through this also brings more peace to the whole journey. Just to know I am not alone in it.
Well that's about all there is to share at this point. I'll be going in to see my dr in December to start the treatments again, and hopefully I will be up to making another update. Until then, thank you for reading and for caring and for praying. If I can help you in any way with prayer and encouragement, please don't hesitate to talk to me :) God bless you, and happy Thanksgiving!!
